Is it weird to feel lonely in a city this size?

It's weird to feel so lonely. My husband is working a lot, which he  has to do for us. I would never blame him for that and hate being sad about him being gone, because it makes him feel bad. But it's hard to get passed it. He's working this week until ten and then he has to walk home.  It is just a lot harder than I thought it would be. It's weird to feel out of place in my own home and to feel so alone here. And I am so scared that I can't force myself to be my own person. I need to be strong for me and it's so much harder than I thought it would be. I love my husband more than anything, but I feel like I'm losing myself. The friends that I thought I had are too busy to spend time with me or even ask how I am doing. 

I thought that graduate school would help me step out as a person. Working toward a degree and a job was to help me find myself and become more self-confident. However, that seems to be blowing up in my face. My graduate school program seems like a joke. There is no class discussion and no attempt to care for students. My advisor not only does not know my name, I'm not sure he knows my gender from the class roster. I don't feel motivated to even do class readings. I loved my undergraduate college experience and I don't want to feel so bitter about these classes. I'm now working 40 hours a week just to keep myself busy, and even now all I want is ice cream and a sappy movie. It's weird how when I'm sad, I want to watch a sad movie. I guess I just want to cry about something other than my life. Even when I reach out to family and friends I find everyone is too busy to even listen. And yet, when someone needs something I get called. I like being helpful and appreciated, but I guess I'm starting to feel used. I get called, but no one is listening to what I'm actually saying. I worry about people, but they don't care what I think. And then they don't care to ask me how I'm doing.

I feel like I'm a teenager dealing with depression. I don't want to be that teen anymore. When I was on my study abroad I cooked and walked and took care of myself. While I was in Scotland I felt strong. I did exercise and I tried to eat right. Now I feel like I've gone backwards. I want to find something that makes me happy for me. I want to be better so I can be there for my husband. How can I be a good wife if I feel like this? And what happens if this program doesn't get better, what do I do with this degree? If the program is this poor, what is the job I hope to get going to be like? Or worse, what if I can't find a job?

I'm just tired of not having any direction. I need real goals and real benefits for those goals. Making stupid promises to myself about buying a car or even giving myself a new book or DVD won't work. I can't even work to toward being ready for a baby, because just fixing me won't do that. More money and a large apartment have to come first. So where do I start? How big a change do I need to or can I make? What does that mean for my family? And who will help me if my family and friends won't?